Lately, I've a new thought. It just came to me after an incident happened. I've been thinking alot too lately but the path seems doom to me. So, I'm practically still undecided what is my next step shall be. In the meantime, I'll just walk my life on a daily basis and see where it leads me to :) I've learnt a lesson as not to take everything that comes to me for granted. I shall feel grateful for the blissful moments that happen in between life and do not grumble on down moments. Because, life does have its' ups and downs - is where we learn our experiences and build our characteristics. Plus, I shall not have high hope as when it turns out not as what I expected, it is a very very painful fall for me. No one is at the peak all the time, somehow or rather, someone else will have his or her moment at the peak too.
The fall - is the one that painted a clearer picture into my life. Shows me that the truth is not what i thought so, so far. OR, what i thought so is right, but, is not as beautifully painted as it seemed. There is always a secret or privacy section in one's mind that only yourself knows. To remain silent, I'll never get to pour out my unsatisfactory. I'll never get to the nearest answer. I'll never get to mend anything. On the other hand, to voice out, it will change everything in life. Where trust will be broken. I'll never be the same again, in terms of mind and soul. I'll always be in doubt and won't trust easily anymore. I wonder trust will ever be re-build, but one thing for sure is there is always will be a crack on the trust word. Just like a broken vase, you mend it back, it will always have cracks everywhere. The vase may not be in usable form because water may leak out from the cracks.
Perhaps, to move on is the right decision. Either I keep to myself more and not to release more or I release more and never to expect to be treated the same way. This way, I will not be hurt so much :)
