Wednesday 14 December 2011

TRUST is earn over the years NOT overnight!

Lately, I've a new thought. It just came to me after an incident happened. I've been thinking alot too lately but the path seems doom to me. So, I'm practically still undecided what is my next step shall be. In the meantime, I'll just walk my life on a daily basis and see where it leads me to :) I've learnt a lesson as not to take everything that comes to me for granted. I shall feel grateful for the blissful moments that happen in between life and do not grumble on down moments. Because, life does have its' ups and downs - is where we learn our experiences and build our characteristics. Plus, I shall not have high hope as when it turns out not as what I expected, it is a very very painful fall for me. No one is at the peak all the time, somehow or rather, someone else will have his or her moment at the peak too.

The fall - is the one that painted a clearer picture into my life. Shows me that the truth is not what i thought so, so far. OR, what i thought so is right, but, is not as beautifully painted as it seemed. There is always a secret or privacy section in one's mind that only yourself knows. To remain silent, I'll never get to pour out my unsatisfactory. I'll never get to the nearest answer. I'll never get to mend anything. On the other hand, to voice out, it will change everything in life. Where trust will be broken. I'll never be the same again, in terms of mind and soul. I'll always be in doubt and won't trust easily anymore. I wonder trust will ever be re-build, but one thing for sure is there is always will be a crack on the trust word. Just like a broken vase, you mend it back, it will always have cracks everywhere. The vase may not be in usable form because water may leak out from the cracks.

Perhaps, to move on is the right decision. Either I keep to myself more and not to release more or I release more and never to expect to be treated the same way. This way, I will not be hurt so much :)

Friday 25 November 2011

Inspiration & Admiration

I had a marvellous lunch today with a very successful Indonesian businessman. He shared his bit and pieces of his life, family, thoughts and business. He is truely a rich & humble man. Although he is born with priviledge, as his family background is very rich, but he never rely on his background to gain rich. He relies on himself to be where he is today. Now, he is a million millionaires :) maybe even more than that digits :) He set foot out to pursue his business with only RM25, which was his 3 months salary back in 1987. He went to Jakarta with that money and nothing else, all started from scratch. Hearing his story, I find him very pitiful during his endeavour and I am truely admired him. He went to every paper mills or to any people that were using paper (he is into paper business) -- door to door, called them up...all means were used to engaged informations or business with them. One of the stories was on his first business to Malaysia. He came to Malaysia many years ago. He would go to wet market to get a pack of rice and a packet of tissue. He is smart. He would contact the manufacturer of the tissue paper and the packet that wrapped his rice (fyi, is only plain white rice) -- from there he picked up his lines of customers. One customer would introduce another customer let to another customer and the rest is history. He is humble as in he is not over engrossed with business. He prefers to make friends instead of only business liasing. Some may not have any business dealing with him but they do keep good contacts with each other. 

Additionally, he spread his business to China. He is a chinese Indo but he does not know how to speak or understand chinese or any other languages. He only knows Bahasa Indonesia. He is illiterate and he said he is not clever in school. But he is very brilliant in making money. While at China, he took risk with stranger. Once landed at the China airport, he would eye for a reliable person and stopped him. He would then called his taiwanese friend that know chinese and indonesian to speak to that stranger so that he could join ride with that stranger to the meet up location. He was lucky that he eyed the correct person as that person sent him to the destination safely. He said he did not want to take cab as afraid would meet bad guy that either would kidnap or injure him or tour him around the city without dropping him off at the correct address. While at there, he was exposed with strong alcohol drinks, cigerattes and women. However, he had none of those. He would pour away the drinks, left the cigerattes burning on table and he was at the hotel room while his partner had fun with those women. His partner returned to the room 4am in the morning.

Not only he has good business skills, he is a family man. He strongly loves his wife and family. His personal philosophy is man shall not engage with women other than own wife. According to him, can be husband and wife - is a union fated...wife is the one brings luck to the husband. Women outside mostly wants money. A man can give money to his wife but not other girls. He said a man will know where his money goes to with his wife such as where she keeps it or spends it but with other girls, a man may not know where the money goes to. No matter how a man flirts outside, a man's heart is always back to his legal wife. He will not forget his first love. He said man is always tempted with women, he is just a typical man but he restrains from doing it because if there is a first time, there will be second, third and so forth. He seems to be a man with principle :)

As of his personal life...well, for all his disadvantages, he wants his wife to have them. Such as, must know more languages than him (read and write) and must know how to use computer. During his younger days, his friend told him to get an Ipoh wife. Ipoh girl knows 5 languages, know computer and hardworking. So, off he went to Ipoh in search of a wife..hehehe..and he finally found one. His wife will travel with him around on some of his business trips to be his eyes (go through documents/interpretor) and hands (computer) :) Currently, his wife is holding and is incharged of account in his company. When asked why he does not learn chinese as his wife is a chinese, he said he did memorize but the next morning, he will forget..hehehe..but he is very alert over his wallet. Missing a note, he will know. He has good brain on numbers, anything less or missing, he will know instantly. No wonder, he can keep good amount of money in the bank :) His family has a tradition of many children. His dad has 39 children from 4 wives. He is the 3rd wife son. His elder mom delivered 16 children. Do you know why all 4 wives bear his dad so many children? Because for each pregnancy/child, one is given 1kg of solid pure gold. Gave birth to a boy, would get slightly more gold. However, for himself and also his siblings, they have only one wife. All love thier wife dearly and strongly believe on any affairs are bad or improper. Aren't thier wives lucky? They married to super rich and family men!!

Business - He shares with me where to do business. Which country has promising gain from business. Of course, some from his experience when he told me stories about it. You know, something money can't buy - successful people's experience!!

Readers..I know you guys may think I am naive to believe a man's words. Well, I do believe him majorly because my dad is thier friends for many many years. Personally, I know them since my childhood days. I dine with his brother and his family before. I met him before and he can recognize me just now during lunch. He remembered he met me before. So, practically I know all of them are from pleasant background and have good heart.

Wednesday 16 November 2011

Cedric's 1st airplane experience

Is so much fun and nice that I can resume my travel hobby after put on hold for a year..hehe..Since pregnant with Cedric, I did not fly anymore with an exception - attended my cousin's wedding at Singapore while I was 3 mths prego & visited Universal Studio Singapore then. Bought Universal Studio shirt, funny was Cedric is very much attracted to this particular shirt till today :) Maybe he finds it familiar that he went before..haha..This eventually link to my next travel plan with Cedric in tow - thinking to bring him to USS.

Brought Cedric to Singapore when he was 10 mths old. He was a good boy on flight from Pg-Sg. However, a cranky boy on flight from Sg-Pg. I believed because he wanted to sleep very badly. He is used to carry him walking and singing him lullaby with occassional patting on his behind. That day, he woke up at around 9am right up till flight time which was at  the evening. In between, he had no proper sleep. He did nap on flight a shortwhile and woke up crying till landed. Due to annoucement made by the pilot.

In Singapore for a week - Hubby would bathe him daily and let him swim in the bathtub. I would change his diaper, lullaby him to sleep and made him milk & cereal. Everyday while there, we would bring him out when he was awake. Got back to hotel room when he needed his bathe and sleep. Sometimes, he did sleep on stroller when we were not done with our outings. Travel with him not as bad as I thought. Luckily, it turned out well afterall :) Bought him a blue teddy at Marina Bay Sands Shoppe & 2 shirts at Vivocity. Had great time at MBS. Had late breakfast at Beanstro followed by windows shopping with Cedric while hubby trying for luck at the casino :) Had late lunch at TWG then proceed to Titanic Exhibition. By the time we got back to hotel was already 5pm. My most memorable, happiest & missed day!! :)

10th Anniversary down the road - Mr & Mrs Teoh

Hubby is the one bringing back bucks for the household majorly. From an engineer (so called small fry by my mom), today he's a Manager in an established Japanese company. He lavishes me most of the time to the extend of expensive goods and spending. I am a working wife cum mother. Life with my hubby can be considered good by far. Note, we do argue on and off over the decade. We do share same interests such as movies, try out at new restaurants, explore new places...Either we compromise with each other's interests or we really enjoy each other company. One thing for sure we both like is COFFEE! :)
After all these years, hubby still keeps the same routine from day 1 of us together - that is will call me daily at work each morning and noon.

Arrival of Cedric has bonded us to the next level. Baby Cedric keeps us busy and handful. However, hubby and I still manage to have 2 persons' world together over weekends. After dropping off my son and maid at my parents' place, we will proceed to our movies and lunches and whatever errands we need to do. Finally, before fetching my son for dinners outside, we still get to rest and relax at home over my favourite TVB series :)

I certainly hope that hubby and I will grow old together gracefully and that our son will grow up well along with us. I hope hubby will still love me and son for many years to come :)

My Cedric boy - 1 year old

Looking back now, I am really proud of myself :) I don't know how I can endure everything in raising him until this stage. There are indeed some difficult moments that my hubby and mostly me have to face. All the trouble undertaken for the past year. All parents do, right?! :) I am lucky in my own way. Cedric stops his night feeding since 2 months old. So far, I don't have to change his diaper in the middle of the night. On top of that, he is not a pacifier boy. Great isn't it? :) But he drools alot until now..is even worst during teething time. For now, he has 8 teeth all together - 4 on top, 4 bottom. He looks gorgeously with his new set of teeth when he smile.

For the past weeks and still ongoing, experiencing difficulties to get him eats his congee - pork, chicken, fish even at times cerealac too. Wonder why he keeps spitting out, makes feeding time difficult and dirty. Gladly, he still drinks his milk well. He is not a sour boy just like daddy :) both dislike sourish food. Therefore, Cedric dislikes yogurt too! In many ways, he inherits daddy's habits. Besides, sharing same tastebud, Cedric too will wake up scratching himself just like daddy! Moving on, Cedric does share some similarities with mommy - in terms of look wise. He inherits my facial alot.

0-6 mths :- Mostly milk and sleep. So was alot easier during these months as he was mostly in babycot.

6-8 mths :- Solid food came into picture. To kick start with, I gave him cerealac brown rice. From there he got to taste varieties of flavours - ranging oats & prune, wheat & honey, biscuits to chew on & finally congee with vege, carrot and potato. Introducing solid food was alittle difficult for Cedric as he fussed alot. Eventually, he got used to it too and enjoyed the food fed to him. At times would cry for more when he finished the whole bowl of cereal. He was in a way a late boomer for he could not sit by himself when he reached 8 mths. So, we bought him a walker.

9-11 mths :- Within a month after using the walker, he can now sit, crawl and stand by himself. He loves walker as he can go anywhere he wants like lightning strike. Yup, he is fast! Due to we never let him on hard floor, he cannot walk by himself just yet plus, he does not know what is pain yet. He will tend to drop/bang his head on the hard surface just like he does everytime on soft surface. This action will entail with his crying aloud :) Oh well, he is afterall a crying baby type of boy. For he cries for big or small matters that happen on him. Wonder from who he picks up this attitude..hehehe...Now, he screams alot. Screams with his thundering vocal. The loudness and shrieking scream can spoil one's eardrum. Yes, it hurts my eardrums lots. I am still researching as to why feeding time is so difficult and dirty now. He will spit out the food - congee (everytime) and cereal (occassionally). Initially, I thought he was a vegetarian as he was all right with all food until I introduced meat (pork, chick, fish) to him. Then, he starts his spitting game. Then one day, he spat on cereal too. This really makes me confused. This is also a month (11th) where he is a good boy during meal time for daddy & mommy. He can sit on babychair for entire time till we finish our meal. Phew!

12 mth :- This will be upcoming in another month :) I hope will be much much more better and easier and the most importantly I pray for his good health, smooth growing up and be good boy. All in the happening month of December where his birthday and christmas come together :) Happy Birthday dearie & Merry Christmas..

Monday 14 November 2011

Motherhood - Bittersweet moments

Time really flies - me a young girl to teen to dating to marriage and now I am a mom :) In this latest achievement of mine, is where I discovered new adventure (experience) in life! I never handle or help my Sis in laws in baby caring before, so, at here I have to handle everything all by myself with the help of a maid of course. 1st month also known as confinement month, I had a confinement aunty with me. From there, I was taught a few things by aunty. I would look at how she attended to my boy so that I will know how to look after my own son when she no longer in service with me after a month. I can handle my son in all aspects except bathing and poo diaper changing time :) This was when maid came into view :) Caring a baby is not easy work neither short task. It is a life time commitment and responsibilities. I was in constant worry over my infant baby - because he was a colicky baby. Since, is our 1st child, everything seemed not right and inexperienced and without much helped or knowledged. I learnt all the tricks from my son's discomfort. Such as, apply medicated oil on tummy and give gripe water to reduce colic and indigestion, how much to feed, how many hours later for next feeding, burping is also important and never ever carry my baby when he is not sleeping so that he can use to being left alone in babycot plus is good to encourage sleep after each feeding for baby development and the list goes on n on...hehehe...

Another phobia would be when he suffered urine sickness. He was admitted for a week for tests and observations to be done. I cried on one of the tests, where a tube was inserted into his penis and when dye was poured through the tube for "x-ray" purpose to check whether his kidneys were all right. Both procedures I were not allowed in the room with my baby. This is for a reason - every mom will feel pain and heartache to watch one's baby crying in pain/discomfort. Even I was outside the room, I cried even before my son started to cry. When his crying started, I cried even more..my heart was like ruptured in someway and I disliked the atmosphere where I didn't get to see what the nurses and doctor did on him. The feeling was like I needed to rescue him in whatever pain he was suffering then. But still, all these were for his health check and I had to endure the whole process. Thank God, the result was all right on him.

On the other hand, it is so much comforting and blessing to see my adorable son sleeping. When he sleeps, I see peace and tranquility in him. It somehow gives me security :) Believe it or not, I have a feeling my son and I have a special bond in between us. Meaning, he somehow can understand and read what I have in mind. A few occassions, when I needed him to be good as maid not around, somehow, he understood them. Like, no poo when alone with me - he really poo-ed when I had assistants around me such as hubby or dad, sleep through the night since 2 months old when maid left for good. Well, afterall he's a good boy who give not much trouble for his mommy.

BREASTFEEDING - oh why the caps? hehe..well, because is very important for hubby and i to breastfeed our son. We were afraid I would not have much breastmilk. Surprisingly, I had sufficient milk for my son. I fully breastfed my son for 2 months. I did not continue as I did not control my diet and my son is colicky - paediatrician advised me to avoid "cold food" so that my son would not be colicky that often. It was thrilling to see my breasmilk level up. Confinement lady would "order" milk from me to her desired ounces :) What she wanted, I gave :) Mostly, I would direct fed my son from my breasts. Pumped when my son was asleep or non feeding time. I even had to pump in the middle of the night!! Lazy once, I flooded my bed with my overflow milk!! Haha..When my son was admitted to the nursery for colic, I went to the nursery to pump milk for him. At there, once hubby got to join me at the nursing area. He helped me pumped. We were lucky to meet a kind nursery nurse who taught us how to massage and press for milk to avoid engorgement. I was always smilling when pumping milk at the nursery because was so nice to see I filled the bottles fast. I always needed 2 bottles at one go because pumping one, the other one will leak :) Breastfeeding is indeed an awesome experience!!

Sunday 13 November 2011

December - The arrival of My Dearest Baby Boy

Hence, after trying for a year and 4 months, I was finally blessed with a positive result on prego test kit :) I thought it would be another ordinary month, with another menses and importantly another failure to concieve. Unbelievable and kinda shocked me when the prego kit showed big red "+". Needless to say more, I was in ecstatic mode, happy and excited plus cloud 9 again :) The first thing I did when I came out from the bathroom was to call my hubby to inform him the good news. Obviously and naturally, he too was shocked and happy. He too in disbelieved and asked me, " are you sure?" and asked me to get diagnosed by a gynae soonest possible.

Finally, our prayer was answered :) Throughout my 9 months pregnancy, I was lucky to have no symptoms where usually expectant mom will experience. I was pretty much "still" myself. Except, 1st trimester - prefer spicy food, 2nd trimester - sour/bitter food and lastly 3rd trimester - sweet food. But I didn't have big appetite neither morning sickness nor grow fat :) My tummy was not very huge so after delivery, I was kinda before pre-natal state. My hubby of course was more attentive on every movement and everything i did. He super lovely towards me and never argued with me and tolerated me throughout my queen period of time - 9 months :)

During my last trimester, my hubby was on bussinestrip to Taiwan for 2 consecutive months. We then kept in touch daily via Skype. The most touching and memorable thing was we both visited Cartier website without knowing on different part of the globe. He bought me a Trinity Cartier Ring from his trip for delivering him a baby boy. Just as I wanted it 3 years ago but I didn't buy it.

Here we are -- on December 2010, I was admitted for delivery. My labour lasted 8 minutes and my jewel was born to this world!! Many said my boy loves me as he didn't let me suffer long to deliver him. Everything happened very fast and brief. Bravo to myself -- I did it without epidural!! Haha..The experience is priceless!!

My Marriage Days

Here we go...the wedding bells!! :) :) My hubby and I got married in 2006. The morning of the day of my wedding, I was very very nervous and yet excited. It was held in a very nice grand ballroom of E&O Hotel. My wedding was not planned well and many happened ad hoc-ly. Anyways, all went gracefully. Had grand dinner at Rasa Sayang Resort with my Singapore relatives who came all the way to attend my one in a lifetime wedding occassion.

Honeymoon - We went to South Africa. It was another right choice we made correctly. Initially, I wanted to go Italy. In many perceptions, Italy supposes to be romantic and suits best for honeymoon-goers. However, not in my perspective. We went to Italy on our 3rd year marriage anniversary and turned out not as enjoyable as in South Africa. I like best of our honeymoon was the experience at Safari. We stayed in Mabula Lodge and travelled in open jeep to view wild animals at the safari.

Planning to try for a baby after 2 years marriage when we have our own house to live in. However, I had a brief pregnancy before our house could move in. It ended with ectopic pregnancy. It was a very sad and painful experience for me. Although, the pregnancy was not expected, still it inked me very deeply. Since then, I suffered some kind of depression. Meaning of  "some kind", I was okay throughout my daily livelihood, still cheerful and went around merrily like usual BUT when I saw my menses came, I was devastated again and again....and..again...

In the meantime, I did enjoy greatly with my hubby for approximately nearly 4 years before being blessed with our bundle of joy newborn baby boy. Two of us would easily took off to anywhere, anytime without responsibility. Everything was easier to plan and expect. 2 to go..hehehe...

My Courting Days

Well well well, love blossom on March 2001. My destiny with my hubby starts from then :) Met my hubby from an outing. I don't have many male friends and one that comes along, I just grab it. Hahaha..!! Quite interesting to find out all about love, dating but our union does not come by easily. As starter, my parents were very very against it. For dad, reason was I was still studying college at that time. For mom, afraid I got pregnant before completing studies & before married plus my hubby does not come from rich family background and the time i met him, he was an engineer.

So, you can imagine how hard we were at that time when we wanted to go out together or talked over phone :) Out of all those obstacles and hatred my parents built up on him during those times, 1 thing I admired my hubby was he insisted to meet my parents up when he found out how unhappy the folks were. My hubby said he needed to see them so that they wouldn't feel insecure for thier daughter to go out with him. However, the met up session of course didn't work out well. He was given the cold shoulder and angry facets and words BUT he didn't break off with me for that.

I'm truely thankful and grateful for staying on with him as it turns out it is my right choice. Luckily, I didn't bow to my parents wants and needs and stood firm to be with him -- my dearest hubby :) I'm always the follower without standing firm for my thoughts. The only greatest achievement i have in my part of my journey of life is standing firm to continue my relationship with my hubby to proof my folks wrong of him. Obviously, after some time, my folks gave thier blessing for our courtship. Even so, it came with rules and regulations and curfews. Hahaha..and still we stayed on..:)

The blissful parts of our courtship were times we spent together doing things together -- movies, dinings, errands, and I was in cloud 9 when he lavished me most of the time especially on occassions. On contrary, we did have our down time. We argued alot after sometimes together --people usually say "honeymoon years" are over..hehe..We parted briefly on end quarter of 2005.

Early 2006, we got back as an item. We talked of marriage and the rest is history.

About Myself

I'm just a typical girl. Prefer and feel secure with simple but stable life :) Loves to travel alot and I make it a point to have annual holiday trip. More than a trip in-between will be bonus added :) I'm addicted to coffee. I need my everyday dose of caffeine without fail and sometimes I'll have up to 3 cups perday. Have heart for animals and I truely dislike animal cruelty. Currently, I'm into long term donations for WWF and on and off donations for UNICEF.
Lastly, I'm married with a son:) which I'll be blogging about it for the rest of my blogging journey..enjoy!